I Am Sorry!

10849760_719038058192913_1804122520339605633_nI am sorry, I shouted at you,
I am sorry I got angry,
I am sorry that I was not there,
But it was not something,
I ever expected,
I didn’t know you will be lost,
I didn’t know I will never see you,
I was angry that you kept me waiting,
I was angry that you didn’t see me,
But I never knew that unhappy I will be last,
Which talked to you.

I am still angry,
You didn’t fill the promise,
You said you will come back,
You promised that I will be the one,
You will first meet.
And look at you! You are gone,
Leaving us all in shock,
And a promise which will make me regret,
My last anger for life.

You remember,
It wasn’t long when we got close,
We shared bench, we shared lunch,
Taking nap during break,
Cracking jokes and pulling pranks,
I have always missed that,
You remember,
4th bench of the first row,
For All the 4 years,
Yes you missed one,
And you bragged about that one,
That you had so much fun.

I hope it was not true,
I hope you were all fine,
I hope you still there to dance,
Like a maniac, like a drunkard,
I hope that we can still pull your legs,
Tell you off for the flirt you were,
I hope I was not angry,
On the last call,
I hope I had the chance to say,
But it is late, you are gone,
And all I can do is to say it again, I am sorry!


A poet

A gentle heart, overwhelmed with thoughts,
Scribbled papers, inked hands,
Pouring what inside,
It may make sense to one,
And not to other,
That make one a writer.

Turning shadows in to mountains,
The morning in to paintings,
A God on papers,
Scientists by mind,
Can imagine a world of nonexistent,
That’s how the writers are!

Year of changes!!

Not every day is same, not is the year,
Why to worry then, why to fear,
For me, it was a year of change,
Books and lecture changed into office hours,
Cold and wet weather changed to dry and hot,
From the gravel beach to Delhi roads,
It was the year I moved a lot.

Just not for me,
Life changed for people around too,
Wedding bells for quite few I knew,
For many, 9 to 5 routine was in queue,
But I am pleased with all the change,
And I hope others feel the same.

With the lessons from the year last,
I am moving ahead and moving fast,
With the wish for the others and myself,
Be the coming days are exciting and full of smile,
Hope there is peace and days are less stressed,
And people find strength in each other’s hand!

Smiling in Ruins!!

The sun is bright,
In the morning chills,
Let me play with little I have,
Because who cares,
About the limits I have,
Let the world know,
I can smile in ruins.

The little space,
In the garbage yard,
Is the tennis, football,
Or whatever ground you call,
I have big dreams but,
I also know I can laugh with,
The people I have.

I can rise I can grow,
I am not that Tech friendly,
That I know,
But childhood is mine,
Which I deserve to live,
Let me shine in the sun I have,
Let the world see,
I can smile even in the ruins.

टूट रहा भारत, बिखर रहा हिंदुस्तान मेरा!!!

टूट रहा भारत, बिखर रहा हिंदुस्तान,
जाति – धर्म के नाम पर विफल हो रहा इंसान,
है मची मार काट, हिंसक हो रहा अपना समाज,
दो जुबान के कहने पे है मचा दानव सा उत्पात!
नेता बन बैठा उपदेशक, विष प्रहार कर रहा,
भोला भला इंसान देश का,
फिर भी उन नेता का पद प्रक्षालन कर रहा,
रो रहा देश मेरा, बह रहा इसका लहू,
दो कर्कश बातों के कारण,
पुत्र, पुत्र को बीध रहा!

आरक्षण, धर्म जस नाम के मुखोटों से ढक,
कोई अपनापन जता रहा,
अपना अपना कह हम सबसे वो,
अपना स्वार्थ निभा रहा!
जागो इससे पहले टूट जाएँ हम इस कदर,
इस राजनीती के अग्नि से भाग भी ना पाएं चाह कर,
सरक्षण का वादा कर लूट रहे हमको जो,
शिक्षित हो, पहचानो उनको, और बचा लो खुद को!

टूट रहा भारत, बिखर रहा हिंदुस्तान,
जाति – धर्म के नाम पर विफल हो रहा इंसान,
है मची मार काट, हिंसक हो रहा अपना समाज,
दो जुबान के कहने पे है मचा दानव सा उत्पात!

A letter to Sir Modi: Please Come Home!!

Dear Mr Modi Sir,

I am not against you and neither am I saying that you haven’t done anything in 15 Months of your chair time. On many edges you have been amazing, bringing ample amount of funding, convincing foreign investors to be part of ‘MAKE IN INDIA’ campaign, and building and strengthen relations with foreign governments are few of your many achievements so far. Clean India and opening more than 80 thousand bank account within 100 days of your governance are few steps towards the better India I always hoped for and I can’t thank you enough for these.

However, I feel you have failed on few departments. Yes, it is not possible to see each side in the small term you have been on chair so far. So I will mention here one of the important one. No excuses can justify that no steps has been taken to tackle communal based problems. Sir, we are one of the few secular countries who have been proud of our history, integrity and brotherhood and it is getting hurt every day now. Hate speech from both side and I guess you won’t deny to the fact that some of the speeches are coming from leader of BJP branches are disgusting.

Sir, cleaning starts from home and who knows that better than you, overall you are our Brand ambassador for ‘Swach Bharth Abhiyaan’. So when the campaign will come, where anyone initiating such communal hatred on and off line will be apprehended and brought to justice. When we will see a peaceful India where the spark of 1947 doesn’t appear anymore. I am sure you agree that Godhra, Muzaffarnagar, Dadri are black holes of our social integrity and day by day such incidents will make our society hollow.

When the earning member of family lives far away from home, it doesn’t matter how much money he sends home, he cannot guarantee smooth maintenance of the house hold. So Sir, it is a humble request from me and many others like me, please take a breath from foreign trips and come home. You are our PM before BJP campaigner, you are not only there to earn money for the family but also there to make sure that every family member is getting equal care and food.

Come home Sir and help us Please, make the pillars strong before the house falls and guide us towards a clean and fair society.


One of the citizen

New Man in the city

I am just other new man,
In the city where I can,
Live and Dream,
Shape my life,
Maybe it is not that easy as it seem,
But I can decide,
And be visible and be seen.

There is bit chaos,
And the peace is limited,
But I am ready to pay the price,
Because worth it may.
I hope to find, the key I want,
To open a new door,
To find a new shine.

The thought I had,
When I walked in the city,
With hope and will to be the star,
To be the man I want you to be.
I am just other new man,
In this new city.

Sisters: A small note for You!

Growing with you,
Walking with you,
Every moment spent with you,
Wouldn’t be easier,
If it was not with you.

You were there
To talk me through,
In the rough,
And in smooth.
you kept me on ground,
With my heads up above.

We fought,
We argued,
It was all for good,
And made it better,
Even we live far away,
But seems we are always together.

There is nothing I can do,
To thank you enough,
But one thing I can promise you,
You just need to think of me,
In your high and your lows,
I will be there,
Before a second Goes.

Growing with you,
Walking with you,
Every moment spent with you,
Wouldn’t be easier,
If it was not with you.

You Were There!!!

You don’t know that,
But you were there,
Like a shadow,
With me everywhere!

I never stopped thinking,
Whenever I thought,
About the girl I like,
You always hovered my mind.

I don’t want you,
To even think about it,
It was me who want,
You to be by my side.

You were the first,
The long crush I had,
And just to let you know,
In my memories,
You will be there.

You don’t know that,
But you were there,
Like a shadow,
With me everywhere!

5 Years of University: A jumpy ride

21st September 2010, the first time I stepped down of Bus No. 25 and made my way to Cockcroft reception, I was not sure about how it will go down in next few years. Still teenager, I was intimidated for a while but the large gallery of University had many other works and it didn’t take me long to figure out that I have to find out what I am worth and this will be the place for next few years when I can turn into a masterpiece. Every year passed teaching me, perfecting me, testing me and here I am, a Masters of Electrical and Electronics Engineering with a First class degree. If I start capturing every moment I enjoyed, the moments which taught me lessons for life and others which turned me from a teenager to a man it will few hundred pages.  There is a long list of people I have to thank and some of them will be mentioned below, but that doesn’t mean others are forgotten. I am thankful to every Individual I met along my journey of five years of university.

The First day of university started with making light weight robots in group and competing with other group in different exercises and followed by assembling, soldering and testing a signal generator guided by Ian watts and Deshinder Singh Gill (Deshi) and I gathered that it is all going to be exciting ride and everyday will be different. The life was like a TV drama where the main story line was soldering, striping wire, writing software codes and deciding what to write in next report submission with commercial breaks of partying hard and having laughs with friends. Every season had some new characters, new story line but all leading to one goal, making a non-repeating amazing experience.

First year having just one focus to do good for my career I was reserved and then I became a student ambassador in my second year. I did realize there are many things I am running away from and I can do it all without changing my focus. I made friends for life, I found new family. Third year a new city, a new place shaped my career. Working for Rolls-Royce Motor Cars not only taught me lessons of life but made me confident and I did realize the potential I have and asset I can be to a workplace. Fellow staff Like Antonio and Goncalo were there to encourage and guide. I couldn’t have got a better mentor for the first job in my field. Fourth and fifth year were there to test me to the extreme. Maintaining work, university and social life was not a piece of cake but isn’t that what life is all about? There were moments of depression, threat of failure, promises to keep with success I achieved, innovation I came up with, skills I learnt, confidence I gained and trust among friendships I made. Thinking about it all together it makes me feel, Bloody hell it was a jumpy but amazing ride.

I cherish the moments I lived, satisfied with what I achieved and happy for the choices I made before coming to Brighton University and during my university period. However, this all cannot have been accomplished by some special ones. My mother who always had my back and sending positive vibes throughout my life and my siblings who were ready to be on other side of phone for hours not to let me homesick. The dream team tag wouldn’t have been there If Jason and Tinashe were not the part of success we achieved together, friendly competition we had and support we gave each other while sharing our academic strengths. Chaandini was there to fill the family void in UK and can’t thank her enough for letting me in her family, celebrations and party plans. Thank-you all who did share laugh with me, were there in my hard times and without whom I couldn’t have appreciated the memorable journey I had in last 5 year and made me a successful part of the successful class of 2015 for University of Brighton.